Friday, May 27, 2011

Radical- Part 1

Waiting. . . Adoption is all about waiting.. I figured I would start something new in between adoption updates. I recently started reading the book Radical by David Platt.  This book is an eye opener and at least once a week I will be sharing some of my favorite quotes from the book along with some of my thoughts.

"My biggest fear is that I will hear Jesus' words and walk away, content to settle for less than radical obediance to him." 
      This sentence hit me hard.  When I heard his calling for us to adopt my first thoughts were not let's jump right into this.  I thought it was impossible.  Financially. Emotionally. Impossible.  Through Him nothing is impossible.  The beauty of this whole process is that it is not about me, my son, my husband, or our future daughter; it is about Him.  To be honest, I don't know where the money is going to come from.  We have encountered family and friends that are, let's say less than supportive.  But I know that like Nehemiah we have been given a burden that we will not let go.  

"Satisfaction in our lives and success in the church aren't found in what our culture deems important, but in radical abandonment to Jesus."

"We are settling for Christianity that revolves around catering to ourselves when the central message of Christianity is actually about abandoning ourselves." 

    These two quotes are some of the things I struggle with everyday.  I strive to live my life for Him each day, to not live up to our culture's standards.  My prayer is that day by day my heart and my life begin to look more like Jesus.  I pray that I will change from the inside out. 

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

There's a Peace I've Come to Know

For the first time in months I have a calm sense of relief.  A peace that is only from God.  Since deciding to adopt we have been faced with some issues and decisions that were difficult.  This process is not for the faint of heart.  After praying and finally deciding on the Congo, today I breathed a sigh of relief as I watched our application hit the mail.  This evening, after I got my son to sleep and had time to reflect, I was filled with peace.  I felt as if God was telling me, "I've got this." I have no more "what ifs" and "how am I's," all I have is a still small voice whispering, " Be still, I am here." I didn't think I would ever get to this point.  I am a self professed worry wart, this is not my style. Today, more than any other day, I know this is His will and all will work out according to His plan.  

Today I started reading the book Radical by David Platt.  I recommend this to any Christian, or anyone for that matter.  It will open your eyes.  I look forward to finishing it and will keep you up to date on my thoughts and reflections.  Please continue to pray for us as we continue on our adoption journey.  


Sunday, May 22, 2011

Two roads diverged in a wood...

Eric and I have been torn lately about our decision to adopt from Ethiopia.  After choosing a country nearly 4 months ago we came to love Ethiopia even though we had never set foot there.  Since college I have had a love for Africa and knew that one day I would have a child from there.  We chose Ethiopia for several reasons, one of those being that it was a relatively short process.  Over the past several months things have changed, leaving the timeline in the air.  I have seen the hurt that came with parents leaving Ethiopia not passing court and not knowing when that day will come. I have prayed tirelessly that things would change.  But God has a better plan..  There have been circumstances in the past  months that have kept up from sending in our full application along with the fees, that being unforeseen expenses.  After much prayer, Eric and I feel that God is leading us down a different path.  We have done research and spoken with the Africa coordinator at One World Adoptions and we strongly feel that God has presented us with the opportunity to adopt a little girl from the Congo.  There is great need for loving families for children in the Congo.  There are over 5 million orphans in the DRC.  That number is astounding.  Combine that with the fact that there are 48 women and children raped every hour and you have a crises on your hands.  Eric and I know that adopting won't change the world, but it will change the world of one child.  Please continue to pray for us as we continue our journey to bring our little girl home!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mothers Day

Mother's Day this year was extra special.  As I watched my son running around the yard I realized just how much he has grown.  I never knew being a mom could bring so much joy. The past few months has brought many extraordinary people into my life.  I spend time watching parents meeting their beautiful babies for the first time and I long for that moment myself.  As a mother I already have an appreciation for the woman who will one day give birth to our little girl.  

Like most parents Eric and I wonder what our child will look like.  We are planning on how to prepare our son to be a big brother, how to decorate her room, and all of the frilly little dresses we will buy.  But unlike other expectant parents, we pray for a child who may or may not be born yet who is living half way around the world. Unlike other parents we are wondering if our child is eating enough or if she is sleeping in a warm bed somewhere tonight.  

Some of you are probably wondering what has prompted us to adopt. We
believe we were clearly directed by God to adopt and we are elated and thrilled
to obey Him. We desire to provide a little girl with a loving family who would otherwise not have family. We listened to that still small voice that was prompting us, demanding us, to jump out in faith and bring our sweet girl home. This journey is complicated and long, but the end result is worth all the lies ahead.  

To all the Mommies out there, Happy Mother's Day.