Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Mustard Seed

I've recently been asking myself, "Is your faith as small as a mustard seed?" Such a tiny thing, but when it comes to faith it can seem gigantic.  I must admit, I am a bit of a control freak.  I like things to go according to plan, on time.  You would think I would know better.  God has done a good job of telling me where I can take my plans.. I have learned that His plans are far greater than mine, it's this timing thing I have a problem with.  bib

I recently joined a women's Bible study.  We are reading the book One in a Million by Priscilla Shirer.  Funny God.  Real funny.  Just when I need a swift kick about being impatient you give me this book.  For those of you who haven't read it, go buy it!  It is a great study about the journey of the Israelites from Egypt to the Promiseland.  I will admit, when it comes to Bible reading I prefer the New Testament.  But I am thoroughly enjoying this study.  So here's how it goes.  God delivers the Israelites from Egypt.  He parts the Red Sea and they wonder the desert for 40 years until they become spiritually mature.    Time after time God provided for them.  Time after time they doubted Him.  Talk about failing a test. 

I have been forced to look at our adoption journey as our journey through the wilderness.  Right now we are walking through the desert and its hot.  There's no water in sight.  And I'm thirsty! Man am I thirsty.  I just need a small drink, just a sip.  Then we come across this Marah, nothing but a mirage.  Looks like water, but tastes like beer(yuck).  I can't drink that stuff.  And just when we are about to give up, God brings us a miracle.  Ok, we aren't to that miracle moment yet, but man I know it's coming.  It's just around the corner and I feel it coming.  And I know when it happens, it will undoubtedly be God.  It may come in the form of a much needed zero interest loan, it may be a generous donation, it might even be a very successful fundraiser.  Heck, I would just settle for that job promotion I am up for.  I know I can't pick what it is, but I know God is faithful. I just pray he doesn't make us walk this for 40 years! I'm learning I swear!

The burden God gave Eric and I for orphans was so strong.  We felt it come on strong over a year ago.  We have questioned many times whether we were doing the right thing.  But each time we knew that God would not burden us if he didn't want us to move.  We have run into many roadblocks, and I began to ask, "How are we suppose to support a passion regarding our purpose and keep a sense of enthusiasm about our journey when morale is low?  He answered that.  He has brought people into our life that support us and love us, and we've never met them face to face.  He has given me this Bible study, and he has called us to lead our own small group at church. 

I hope that if you're reading this and you're walking through the wilderness of adoption that you just wait, wait for that miracle to happen.  It's coming!  It's just around the corner!  Have faith, even if it is as small as a mustard seed.

Tara

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