Friday, November 30, 2012

I saw what I saw...

We only have a few hours left in Addis Ababa, Ethiopia.  To say it has been an eye opening trip would be to diminish our feelings.  We were in love with Ethiopia before we ever set foot here.  It's our son's birth country, but this place is so beautiful.  The people are amazing.  To say that I experience culture shock would also be minor.  After I was able to get over the enormity of their poverty and let God lead me, I fell in love.  So, here are some things I'm going to mis...

1.  The shepherd and his herd of goats walking up and down the street in front of the guest house.
2.  The many friends we have met here.
3.  The faces of the smiling children running towards us every day. 
4.  The shoe shine boys on the street behind our guest house.  It has been a pleasure to serve them, to show them the love of Christ.
5. The horns blowing in traffic.
6.  The morning prayers at the Orthodox church.
7.  The beautiful mountain landscape.
8.  Our son, Isaiah Biruk Wilkins.  You have made our family complete, and I cannot wait until the day I bring you home for good. 
 
 
 

Monday, November 26, 2012

To Whom Much is Given...

My mommy brain is exhausted, I've only had two hours of sleep as I type this.  Still, I cannot sleep.  There is so much to process... I knew before we stepped foot on Ethiopian soil God was calling us to something more.  There was a bigger picture coming into focus.. I still do not know what that is, but today has been eye opening.  I am constantly complaining about something at my house breaking, my house is too small, we don't have enough money, my clothes don't fit, I'm over weight... The list could go on... Friends, I've learned today that none of that matters.. I've seen kids as young as six working on the streets.  I've seen adults sleeping on side walks during the day.  Kids begging for food.  Mom's holding children they cannot feed.. And we are staying in a "wealthy" neighborhood.  My heart breaks.  No homeless shelter here.  No soup kitchen. These are people, children of God... I realized our animals in the US are treated better.  My dogs sleep on pillow top mattress in a nice home, they get fed everyday, they have medical care... Oh Lord show me what you want us to do.. There has to be something we can do.  Addis is a beautiful city.  The people here are absolutely beautiful.  Food is dirt cheap.  Still so many are hungry... So many are cold.. So many people back home live with excess, us included.  How much food do I throw away in a week? How much water do I waste?  How often do I take heat and electricity for granted?  This is my son's country.  These are our brothers and sisters.. Something has to be done... We must advocate for them...

Overwhelming Joy

We have been in Ethiopia less than 24 hours and we are in love.  To some Americans, Ethiopia has little to offer.  And to the eye there is poverty all around, but this place and its people are beautiful. We have had such hospitality since we arrived.  Around every corner you can see the mountain landscape, a reminder to me that God's beauty is everywhere.  It's hard for me to find the words quite yet.  Such beauty and pain.  The smells, the sights.  It is a foreign land but it feels like home..

We just picked up Isaiah from the transition house.  He is absolutely perfect.  We are blessed to have nannies who love the children.  His favorite place seems to be on his Daddy's shoulder.  He fell asleep on my chest while we drove home.. He is where he was meant to be now, in the arms of his mother and father.  I love how God brings hope and love to the fatherless.  I'm going to cut this short, but we are in love.  Thank you for your prayers. 

Tara

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Almost There...

I've been meaning to write a post for a while, but it's hard to find the right words or the time.  Eric and I are so humbled by the way the body of Christ has come together to support us.  We want to thank you for following us on this journey, for your prayers, donations, and love. 

A few weeks ago we went to Indianapolis to visit and Ethiopian Church as they have an adoption ministry (http://www.ethioindy.com/).  This was an amazing experience. Like a small piece of Ethiopia right here in Indiana.    I cannot explain the connection that Eric and feel.  We have such a love and burden for a country we have yet to set foot on.  Our emotions are running so high right now, as we are set to travel in 4 days.  This connection is something that only God could give.  Eric and I have both talked about how we feel God is calling us to do more.  This whole experience is about so much more than bringing Isaiah home.  We don't quite know what He is calling us to do, but we are praying about it.  As we prepare to travel, we do have some prayer requests. 

Please pray for our hearts, that God breaks our hearts for what breaks His.  That we may hear His voice.
Pray for our son Rylan (and us) as he will need to transition to not having mommy and daddy for a week.  He's never been away from us for more than 48 hours. 
Pray for Isaiah, that he is healthy and can attach to us.
Pray for safe travels.
Pray for our finances as we still owe our adoption agency money and are unsure about how we will pay for our second trip.  We have applied for grants and are saving money.  We're also unsure about when we will get reimbursed with adoption assistance from TMMI. 

And finally, if you are reading this post and are considering adoption but think it's impossible to afford please feel free to read previous posts or contact us. We felt like this too. In fact had we not seen God work in the Rager's and Sale's lives we wouldn't be here.  We are living proof that God still moves stones.  It is better to go against the grain and gain God's blessings than to go with the flow of the world and miss out on a miracle. 

~Tara